Happy New Year!

I don’t usually go in for New Year’s Resolutions. Let’s face it, they’re the most pointless of traditions. Generally, resolutions are broken before the end of January. I’ve tried them in the past. The usual goals of cutting down on junk food, being more active and finally getting around to fixing up the garden. It’s not gone well!

However, I find myself in something of a reflective mood. This past year has been good in some respects, and bad in others.

Happy New Year - Kath Rella
I’m actually not that fond of fireworks, but I do dig purple. You may have noticed.

The Good

On the positive side, I’ve found love! My girlfriend and I are great together, and I had long assumed I was one of those who was destined to be alone.

I was also ecstatic to achieve a Distinction on my Advanced Creative Writing module with The Open University (and shout out to my fellow distinctionite¬†(yes, I know that’s not a word!) C. John Archer!). My short film script fell only at the final hurdle, which although disappointing, was a huge confidence boost.

And I started this website. I’ll admit, I haven’t kept it updated as much as I’d like and I’ve never really settled on a single topic. Regardless, I’m still marking it on the achievement list. It’s likely best we don’t comment on my Pinterest or Tumblr pages, however.

Social Media Networks - Kath Rella
There’s too many of these bloody things to keep up with!

The Bad

I can’t help but feel there have been some missed opportunities this year, however. Several years ago now, I started work on a novel. It’s been in the revision and editing stage for the best part of eighteen months. Progress has been slow. One issue has been that some people who had offered to help haven’t come through. Mostly, however, it’s because I’ve lacked focus and continue to be an expert in procrastination.

When I started this site, one of my ambitions was to showcase some of my creative writing. I published my short film script, put up a couple of poems and a short story. Since then, I’ve not added anything else to that section. Instead, I’ve mainly posted Movie Musings and Carer Thoughts.

Universal Studios - Kath Rella
I do love movies though. Well, I love good movies. Muck, on the other hand…

New Year’s Resolutions – My Plans

The desire to become a writer has not waned, though. Over the past couple of months, I’ve taken out a Novlr¬†subscription. Additionally, I’ve subscribed to both Grammarly Premium (yay for discount codes!), and on my friend’s recommendation, Pro Writing Aid. These two tools combined have significantly helped me in the editing process.

Now, I need to do more. The next year needs to be the year when I sit down and start working hard to get to where I want to be. There needs to be a self-commitment to publishing my debut novel, Ashes of the Forgotten. I’m not delusional enough to believe that one published book will suddenly make my life, but it’s taking that step. If I want to be a writer, then I need to shit or get off the pot.

This site also factors into my goals for the new year. I want to start updating it with greater regularity. Instead of a clump of posts once a month, and then nothing for weeks, I would rather try and update it once or twice a week. Whether I’ll have enough creative juice flowing to be able to do that remains to be seen. However, it’s fair to say that with each post comes a sense of achievement; a “Yes, I’ve done it” feeling that can be quite addictive. On days when I’ve published a post, I’ve managed to get more writing work done. So I’m going to try and chase the dragon – South Park viewers might get that reference.

Once Upon a Time - Kath Rella
Need to do more of this. With a keyboard though. My handwriting is awful!

No More Excuses

It won’t always be easy. My caring responsibilities will still be there. I’ll still be struggling through, often on little sleep, and feeling like garbage. But right now, I feel determined to see it through. And to do that, I need to get into a ‘creative routine’. It’s time to stop making excuses, cease procrastinating and follow my previous advice!

This post is it. My New Year’s Resolutions. My hope is by putting it here, the thirty or so visitors I get each week (I know, huge numbers, right?) can become my ‘accountabilibuddy’ (another South Park reference) because if we get to February and I haven’t updated this site in two weeks, we’ll know my New Year’s Resolutions are not going well.