Not So Weekly Review
You may have noticed my abject failure to provide a Weekly Review post for two weeks. The overall update frequency here has dwindled somewhat. I guess the post-New Year motivation lull has kicked in a tad! Moreover, though, I’ve simply been bloody tired lately.
Sleep and I have a very complicated relationship. No matter how tired I am, it is rare for me to be able to sleep until 2-3am. Often, because of my carer duties, I am wakened several times per night. So disturbed is my sleep that it is rare that I’ll get a solid eight hours; usually, I have to settle for five or six.
Living in a state of near-constant sleep deprivation doesn’t tend to inform motivation or focus. Indeed, the only thing it does contribute to is my depression. During periods of more frequently disturbed sleep, I can feel so down that even thinking about being productive drains what little energy I have.
At this point, you may be able to guess that over the past couple of weeks, I have severely struggled to get adequate rest. I have battled through it as best I can and continued to work on Ashes of the Forgotten, but updating my blog has been pushed to the side. When so firmly gripped by the claw of tiredness, prioritising what you can do becomes the priority.
Despite not really being in the mood to get much done, I thought I’d knock a quick blog post up today. Undoubtedly, this is more of an incoherent ramble of a post but I feel I need to get back on track. Another thing about being constantly tired, and thus depressed, is that the longer you remain on a downward course, the more difficult it becomes to climb back up again. I’m still committed to getting my novel published and keeping this site active. Every day where I’m not moving forward is another day lost.
Normally, I’d talk about what I have accomplished recently. I dare say, that list is rather short at present. Regarding my novel, I’ve rewritten and revised some small parts and edited others. I have also faffed about in Photoshop and Illustrator to design a cover. That’s still a bit of a work-in-progress! On a more positive note, I have been sticking to my budget plan and was able to treat myself yesterday to a pizza.
Sadly, however, keeping to my budget is the only real achievement I can crow about for the past few weeks. Not great, eh? I suppose I could also mention that despite being unbelievably tired, I’ve not been reaching for the energy drinks.
Hopefully, I can nab a few extra hours’ sleep over the next few days and get back to my best! For the time being, I’ll take some small comfort in publishing these aimless witterings because it is, at least, something.